Monday, 10 January 2011

Finding Peace.

Isn't it so easy to get caught up in how good everyone else's lives look ? believing no storm ever rocks their boats, the sun is always shining and that almost everyone else's family life is brimming with gorgeous goodness, 24 hours of each and every day. Leaving you feeling even lower about the blows you are facing.
And so I am so very thankful for reading over the last few days, some of the most honest, heartfelt posts on blogs and forums of the hardships people are facing in their families, giving my heart some ease, knowing I am not alone.

2011 seems to have blown into our home with abit of a force.
So I am taking my time and trying hard to find peace in the ordinary, the every day, the familiar.
Looking back over the past few weeks, I am not sure the holidays helped us, it all felt so good at the time, later nights with lie ins for all the next morning, which we convinced ourselves made up for the whiny, over tired child of the night before, the grab what you want when you want meal times, that had nothing of any goodness really being eaten but lots of goodies disappearing at an alarming rate, the treat of the TV being on for more hours in the day then in our normal viewing week and more, sadly much more.


And so into January, still struggling to shake off the habits picked up so very quickly.
I am trying to find peace in the stillness, the quiet and the plain.


A new Year with new plans ahead of us, new adventures to face, K will be heading to school at the grand age of 12 ( nearly 13 ) leaving us non-home educators for the first time in 8 years, a morning at play group for O, will do both him and his Mama good I feel, trips to Aberdeen and India are already on the cards for N and L has his own grand plans as he moves ever nearer to his independence.
So this Mama, feeling alittle weary and heart sad is trying to find peace, in the every day and the ordinary.
Deep peace of the running waves to you
Deep peace of the flowing air to you
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you
Deep peace of the shining stars to you
Deep peace of infinite peace to you
Celtic prayer.

18 comments:

Devonmama said...

I feel peaceful reading your post, thank you for a beautiful moment. Wishing your family a joyous 2011 xx

Woolly Wanderer said...

Continue to be of good courage!

We started our "home school day" this morning with wacky diabetic readings, a very tired mama as a result of bed sharing with a fidgety toddler and monumental household tasks!!

Slowly, slowly the jobs are being ticked off and Benedict is currently making a crown for his Ted!

Peace be to you
San x

Joxy said...

****hugs****

I had to smile because we're the same, trying to get back to our bedtimes, not having the tv on so much, eating healthier, getting out and about and just finding our rhythm, our breath again.

blessings hun.

Dawn said...

Oh hugs wonderful mama, your family rhythm will return, find peace wherever you can find it.

Hope 2011 is full of joys and wonderful times for you all x

momma rae said...

this year has already thrown us a few curve balls, too. striving to be strong and find a way to jump back into blogging....finding peace. that is a nice goal!!

arwen_tiw said...

Thankyou!

Rachel said...

(((HUGS)))

Our Christmas holidays have been VERY long and VERY chaotic! Ian heads back to owrk on Wednesday and I am sort of looking forward to it. Of course it will force me to 'cope' on my own, but I think the routine will help and that being forced to get back on my feet a bit might even help.

I hope yopu have managed to find the peace you need....or at least locate it even if you can't quite reach it yet behind the mess and fall out that is Christmas ;-)

Much love

Rach xxx

Pippa said...

Sending you a big hug. Such a weird time of year isn't it, the start of a new year can be daunting, a big yawning blank page. I feel I don't 'know' the year yet.

You have lots of changes ahead of you and you're bound to be upskittled by this. The year will soon start to feel familiar as plans fall into place and you start to recognise patterns once more. Until then, your thoughts of peace are what you need and you should be kind to yourself.

Two large bags of wool are on their way incidentally. It was a bit of a wrench letting some of it go (especially the skein of Alpaca which is soooo soft), but it's worse seeing it unused and you have the skills to turn it into something beautiful I know. Enjoy curling up in a chair with a cuppa and the radio and two bags of wool! xxxxxxx

Susan said...

That Celtic prayer is beautiful and sings deep to my heart. Thank you for your insight and friendship. Love you, xoxo

Erin said...

What a beautiful poem ...
Much peace in your ordinary day to day life.

Cheryl said...

Thought provoking prayer. Thanks for sharing. I'm learning to love January again. Trying to do the bits that drain me, in a different way. Somehow it makes the month seem fresher. I know what you mean about the holidays. I also know that come the summer our family will be eating wonderful fresh food from the garden, so I'm hoping the indulgence over Christmas will balance out!

Sending hugs!

Kelly said...

Thinking of you dear friend. Wish you could pop around for a play and a chat. My absolute favourite prayer which always give me strength! I feel pretty heavy this week too. Seems to be so very much to accomplish this year and anxious we may not be able to pull it off.
You are always in my heart. Deep peace to you.

Barbara said...

I too feel peaceful reading your post and focusing on the candle in your picture. Be assured that no-one I know has a perfect life. Coming to terms with the way our lives are can be hard but this year I'm focusing on the positive and accepting the things about me that I cannot change. x

Georgina said...

Beautiful post, I love that prayer so much too.

Sending you peace and joy and light and blessings
Gina xxx

Stephanie K. said...

What a beautifully written piece, and so reflective of how many of us feel about the holidays. The treats, the disruption of routines, the indulgences, and often the over-spending always leave me feeling like I need a holiday to recover from the holidays. I call it "holiday hangover"...we're all tired and crabby and in need of routines and wholesome foods. Wishing you peace in the New Year; thanks so much for your honesty.

Elisa said...

I think a lot of us only blog when we have something positive to share, but it's nice when we can lift teach other up.

Loved reading this post. I feel peaceful after reading it as well.

Hannah said...

We found ourselves in a similar situation after the holidays, you are not alone in that!
Wishing you good things for 2011 and smooth transitions for all of the changes taking place x

Prettydreamer said...

yes, it is true we do not always share our injuries and hardships outwardly....but they are there ... wishing much gentleness and kindness to come to comfort you ❤pamela