And so I am so very thankful for reading over the last few days, some of the most honest, heartfelt posts on blogs and forums of the hardships people are facing in their families, giving my heart some ease, knowing I am not alone.
2011 seems to have blown into our home with abit of a force.
So I am taking my time and trying hard to find peace in the ordinary, the every day, the familiar.
Looking back over the past few weeks, I am not sure the holidays helped us, it all felt so good at the time, later nights with lie ins for all the next morning, which we convinced ourselves made up for the whiny, over tired child of the night before, the grab what you want when you want meal times, that had nothing of any goodness really being eaten but lots of goodies disappearing at an alarming rate, the treat of the TV being on for more hours in the day then in our normal viewing week and more, sadly much more.
And so into January, still struggling to shake off the habits picked up so very quickly.
I am trying to find peace in the stillness, the quiet and the plain.
A new Year with new plans ahead of us, new adventures to face, K will be heading to school at the grand age of 12 ( nearly 13 ) leaving us non-home educators for the first time in 8 years, a morning at play group for O, will do both him and his Mama good I feel, trips to Aberdeen and India are already on the cards for N and L has his own grand plans as he moves ever nearer to his independence.
So this Mama, feeling alittle weary and heart sad is trying to find peace, in the every day and the ordinary.
Deep peace of the running waves to you
Deep peace of the flowing air to you
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you
Deep peace of the shining stars to you
Deep peace of infinite peace to you